First Annual Jaidon Joseph Smith Scholarships Awarded
Tonight we had the honor and pleasure of awarding the first two annual recipients for Jaidon’s Scholarship. Troy was a Rockstar and was able to …
Tonight we had the honor and pleasure of awarding the first two annual recipients for Jaidon’s Scholarship. Troy was a Rockstar and was able to …
Show your Support on Saturday, May 14, 2022! The CORNER MARKET will be generously donating 20% of all sales to Jaidon’s scholarship fund! 8309 GRUBB …
We are very excited to announce that the 2022 Jaidon Joseph Smith Educational Scholarship is officially open and accepting qualified applicants! The Jaidon Joseph Smith …
It is that time of year when everyone starts to check out. Teachers, kids, parents, colleagues, everyone. You would think that I would be excited …
It has been exactly six months since I have been able to breathe without having to actively tell myself to do so. Six months of …
Tonight is 6 months. 6 of the worst months of my life. One would think that, with time, some of the pain would be tolerable. …
The last two weeks literally took my breath away. When you are missing your child immensely already, having the holidays invade your grief makes everything …
Grab a blanket Curl up It’s what you have Don’t let go Why…why…why me Why does it have to be this way Squeeze that blanket …
I’m trying very hard to be thankful this week. I have amazing family, friends, and colleagues that have worked hard to keep me upright this …
This weekend we escaped our normal routine and spent the weekend alone in Baltimore. Our first weekend away in six months. It was nice to …
Tomorrow marks five months since our son was taken from us. The longest five months of my life. There are still times I am in …
I seem to be struggling with the concept of time lately, and although in the past I have always appreciated the extra hour daylight savings …
This week has been an emotional rollercoaster…. More so than usual. My team at work pulled off unimaginable feats and our event was a huge …
The last week or so has been extremely hard. Not that any of the past 19 weeks haven’t been, but the last week has been …
Staying in a hotel for a night to cut myself a break on the killer commute for work tonight sounded like such a good idea …
Today I woke up an absolute mess. Cried for hours in bed, lots more of them then I care to admit. A lot. Then, like …
About a year ago I came home from a long weekend at work and Troy and Jaidon had built a beautiful fire pit. Our whole …
“With every adversity comes the seed of an equivalent benefit.” Nine years ago today, was the second worst day of my life. The world lost …
It’s not quite done, but I spent some time in the tattoo chair today. Jaidon’s name and birthday. The Red-Tailed Hawk, and the stacked stones …
National son’s day is incredibly challenging for those of us who lost a son. If Jaidon were still here he would have been livid that …
Tomorrow is National Son’s Day. It will be yet another day that I will be reminded that my boy is no longer with us. Looking …
I survived the high holidays and am no better as a result. Tomorrow my littlest will turn 14, and I have no idea how that …
You really have no idea how much you are able to endure until you are forced to do so. Today was another one for the …
As we approach Yom Kippur I have been dreading lighting my first yahrzeit candle for Jaidon. For the last nine years I have cried my …
This has been one hell of a rough week. We had our first Rosh Hashanah (Jewish New Year) without Jaidon. We hit the three month …
Three fucking months, today. Each minute has been a blur blending into the next. The anticipation of the 9th of each month causes my anxiety …
Time, what is it? By definition, a noun, a verb, an adjective As humans we judge time By how long it takes To orbit around …
I am ready to start a new year, one that will hopefully be a bit more peaceful. Really, I wish that for everyone. L’Shana Tovah …
I’m late to the back to school photo post, but, well, keeping on top life this week has been a struggle. Honestly, that may be …
This had been a very tough weekend. Another series of eye opening self discoveries met with aching realities. This weekend I learned that I cannot …
This weekend was supposed to be monumental. We were supposed to move Jaidon into Towson University. I could see it at his graduation in June. …
I love my family, with all my heart. Even when they aren’t easy to love. Over the years we have had our fair share of …
This weekend was a whirlwind of activity. But honestly most weekends it is a fine line between keeping busy enough to function and having some …
“I scream your name. At night, during the day, In my head, and out loud. I know you won’t hear it, but I still scream …
Of course it poured like mad on my way home from work today, because that was the kind of day it was. Thank goodness for …
Two months. Two hard, painful months. Time stopped for us, yet continues on as well. That is strange. Would give anything for just a small …
I came to your house So many people are there I know that you recently moved in I hope that you are settled in I …
Party of five. Ugh. Just saying that aloud brings me to my knees with despair and devastation. We just got back from our first family …
More entries for the year of firsts. On Friday, we went on vacation to the same place we have our last vacation as a family. …
Whew. This weekend was a fuckload of intense reality. We ended up cramming in the truck, the five of us and one of Jaidon’s best …
Tonight Troy and I had date night out front in our yard. We have a small two topper under a lovely tree which provides nice …
Yesterday, I read a statement from a friend who violently and tragically lost everyone but his mother 26 years ago. Scott Goff wrote he was …
Ok so I finally did it! Let me be completely honest… I hate baking with a passion. I mean HATE it. Way too precise and …
Let’s talk weekends These days are full Not like they used to be With joy, laughter, excitement These days are filled with dread Because the …
Today was a shit day. Why? Because the wind blew in that general direction. There really doesn’t have to be a reason. Everything and anything …
Today, I went and got a new dishwasher. The old one broke. I brought it home. I got pissed off. I was so upset. This …
Where did the time go? Somehow June 9th feels like ten seconds ago, I remember every single detail of that night like it just happened. …
Yesterday was four weeks. Tomorrow is thirty days. I am not sure how this has gone by so fast and also been the slowest time …
Jaidon was kind enough to leave us his sourdough starter. So, despite my lack of love for baking, we got the recipes he used from …
This is the last photo Jaidon ever took on his phone. I suspect he was fascinated by the Tesla’s license plate being all ones. You …
Never again will I see your smile Except in a picture frame I can try to see you in memories And that is really a …
I woke up this morning with the sudden realization that three weeks has passed since we lost Jaidon. How is that possible? Time has stood …
Today marks three weeks. It seems like just yesterday and also 10 years. I am not sure how this is possible. As I was looking …
For more than two years Jaidon volunteered as an apprentice at the Kid Museum. So much so that he earned an award for exceeding 270 …
The wind walked across my skin today Carefully maneuvering, keeping me calm The sun smiled down Kissing my skin, warming my body The ground embraced …
This morning for whatever reason, my shitty, post-covid, foggy brain had a moment of clarity and actually remembered that Jaidon had given me the password …
To those out there not knowing what to say to us, we hope you never have the words. If you do, it means you know …
Two weeks. Two long, excruciating, awful weeks. The call no parent wants, we got. Just as Jess said, “It has been like an out of …
Two weeks ago tonight my absolute worst fears as a parent came to a horrific reality. I spent the night, stomach in knots, chasing Jaidon’s …
Today has been hard. Jess went back to work. Kyra went to work. Mattea went to camp. Laylie was a teen, slept in late and …
Today I bit the bullet and went back to work. It wasn’t as horrifying as I had thought it was. I found peace in cranking …
To all of those out there that deserve it, Happy Father’s Day. That includes single mother’s. You have a tough job. I wish a peaceful …
This photo says it all. It is courtesy of a person that does not know me or my family. She stopped at the memorial to …
Since losing my dad nine years ago I have struggled with Father’s Day. It has always been a struggle for me as a daughter who …
I felt guilty today. I felt guilty because I allowed myself to laugh and smile. I allowed myself to have moments where things felt normal. …
Rise What do you do when your soul gets sucked out Allow it to return Rising up slowly like a seedling on a damp forest …
Like any parent who has gone through their teenager’s belongings, we were nervous to see what we would find in his bag from the trip. …
Firsts. We began our year of firsts last Wednesday night. We had our first night without Jaidon. We had our first morning without him. Our …
Ordinarily today would be a great day, it is Troy’s birthday, but for the past few days he has been dreading it. My wish for …
In the words of Ice Cube, today was a good day, at least it was by the end of the day. I had night terrors …
Today has been yet another day of pain and joy. We met with the principal at Walter Johnson. As we pulled up, the first name …
Today we went to the school to meet with Jaidon’s principal. Everyone we met gave us huge hugs and was so supportive. We delivered cookies …
The outpouring of love for our family is amazing. Thank you to everyone for being a part of everything. Pain, Pain, Don’t Go Away. I …
There really are no words but there is overwhelming amounts of love and support…and food. We are forever grateful for the outpouring of love and …
I can’t begin to say thank you enough to the outpouring of love and support that we have received. Please know that we have read …
Jaidon and I weren’t always too close, but in the past year and a half, we were the closest we’d ever been. For the past …
In less than an hour, we will begin the funeral of my son. Jaidon was in a car accident with some friends. He lost his …
Well that fucking sucked. Tribute to Jaidon: https://www.wusa9.com/mobile/article/news/local/maryland/high-school-seniors-killed-car-crash-west-virginia-walter-johnson-high-school/65-8ad9f76c-9163-43af-ad15- Link to donate to the Jaidon Smith scholarship fund: Jaidon Smith Scholarship Fund
It is with extreme heartache and sadness that we have to tell you that tonight we lost our baby boy. He and his friends were …