Since losing my dad nine years ago I have struggled with Father’s Day. It has always been a struggle for me as a daughter who lost her dad and was never fair to Troy who was always so understanding of my bittersweet emotions. My dad was an amazing man who was special to our whole family but really held a very special place with both me and Jaidon.
When the kids were small we took them camping. When a marshmallow was dropped my mom took it and tossed it into the woods. Jaidon immediately grabbed my dad’s hand and said “Papa, come with me, Bubbe threw a marshmallow and it is going to attract a bear and I don’t want you to get eaten.”
This Father’s Day will bring bittersweet to a whole new level. How do you celebrate being a father when you are missing a kid at the table?
Troy is the most amazing father and he has worked hard to be that way. When we found out Jaidon was on the way there was no dad-to-be ever more proud.
I hope he can find a way to celebrate his 18th year of being a dad and know me and the girls are surrounding him as we all cry together loving him and missing Jaidon and my dad.