To all of those out there that deserve it, Happy Father’s Day. That includes single mother’s. You have a tough job. I wish a peaceful Father’s Day to those missing their father’s for whatever reason. To those of us missing a child, I hope today was somewhat peaceful and you allowed yourself to enjoy as much as you were able.
I visited Jaidon this morning. It was yet another tough realization that he is gone. Straw and grass seed over his final resting place. I laid with him, I cried to him, I longed for him. It was tough. It also brought a sense of peace. I am not sure why, it just did. I came home and napped. I napped A LOT. There was a level of exhaustion I guess I hadn’t realized was there.
Jaidon’s friends came over again. This time to say Happy Father’s Day. What a special and amazing group of kids. They brought me some pictures of my boy. They just sat around, knowing they were welcome. Knowing they are loved. Knowing they are family.
I know this day was hard, and I know it was hard for Camille’s dad. I know that without her parents and family, we would not be able to get through the day to day.
So, Happy Father’s Day. Go hug your kids, parents, or whomever fills that role in your life. Tell them you love them, really tell them. Do not ever take for granted that person. Hold them close to your heart. Enjoy the big moments, celebrate the small ones.
Hugging a grave site is not what I thought I would be doing. It was the best hug I have ever given and one of the most meaningful.