This morning for whatever reason, my shitty, post-covid, foggy brain had a moment of clarity and actually remembered that Jaidon had given me the password to his cell phone and it surfaced in my head.
For the past few years there wasn’t a moment where that thing wasn’t in his pocket. Being who he was, we assumed he had set up the phone so that if you guessed his passcode wrong a certain number of times that it would wipe his phone clean so we have been working with a friend of ours to help hack into it, which we no longer need to do.
I now have more windows into his world and life through his phone and computer and I am so thankful for that. There were videos where I could hear his little voice and see his face.
This week I survived a whole work week. Toughest one I’ve ever endured. So thankful for all the love and support and hugs from all my colleagues and friends and work family who stood by my side as I fumbled through projects through tear filled eyes.
This whole experience has been so much worse than any nightmare prior I could have visualized. Thank you to all of you who have tried to help ease that in any way.