The wind walked across my skin today
Carefully maneuvering, keeping me calm
The sun smiled down
Kissing my skin, warming my body
The ground embraced me
Not comfortably, but somehow peaceful
But it is all bittersweet
The beauty of the day is spoiled
The sun now frowning
The grounds embrace becomes a vice
Gripping and squeezing
Why can’t I breathe?
I look around and see no beauty
Just water, almost like looking at the ocean floor
While in the water
No goggles, salt burns
I rub my eyes, harder and harder
Each time it is as though my hands
Can’t move away
Like my hands are superglued
To my eyes
Why can’t I see?
I stand up, breaking from the grips of the ground
Still weak, but I can see
I wish I couldn’t
Is that my heart still lying on the ground
Is there a hole in my chest
Why must I love?
I shake my head
Like a dog with its toy
Refocusing, realizing, revitalized
Reaching down, I take my heart
Not all of it
It’s not all mine
He gets to keep that
The rest goes to my family
They need it
I still love
My vision is clear
I must see what the future holds
I can see again
I breathe in
The warm air crisp on my lungs
Breathe in slowly
Breathe out slowly
I can breathe again
The love of a parent for a child
Is unwavering, and stands the test of time
So, I visit you
Not how I want
Yet I now look forward to our time together
I cherish it
I cherish it because of eternal love
From a father